LIFE: Mourning

This past week was filled with the emotions of mourning and grief. To be honest, I suppose you never  really "get over" the death of a loved one. My dear sweet Granny would have been 96 and while I know she's not suffering from "ol' Arthur" anymore and the other health issues that come up with age, it's still tough. It's been a year and half since she passed and I am still filled with sadness at times. But then I look at the sky and feel the breeze blow around me and I know she's there with me.

 

This week has also been a struggle with mourning a relationship. It's a hard pill to swallow to say when something is really over. It's been over but you know it's really over when you see their profile on an online dating site. Alas, all I can do is move forward.

Here's to spring finally showing up and blossoming into a new direction. Staying focused on me, my blog, my career. Everything else will fall into place.

Much love, Linds

LIFE: Creative Endeavors

First of all, I am thankful to have creative friends to help inspire me to pursue my own creative endeavors. Second of all, it's even more awesome to have said friends to have you involved as a part of their creative endeavors as well.

My BFF Pea a.k.a. Project Love Bot has launched her clothing line! Here I am reppin' the LeoNightIs hoodie. All of her hoodies and t-shirts feature her art. Currently her line includes pieces featuring her LeoNightIs and Owl's Raven paintings. To purchase, visit her Etsy shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/ProjectLoveBot



The other creative endeavor I am involved in is The Love 183 Dating & Relationship Podcast that my awesome friend Carla records and produces. I've co-hosted with her before and my second episode with her dropped today! Check it out here: http://iamcarlashley.com/the-love-183-dating-relationship-podcast and you can subscribe on Apple Music and Google Play Music. 


LIFE: Giving up...

Sometimes in life you have to give up. As in give up and let things go that don't serve a purpose in enriching your life. Give up the unnecessary clutter, give up your shopping addiction, give up fear, give up self-loathing, give up worry, trust yourself and God.

image source: Jenny Lien


I have struggle and still continue to struggle with self doubt. I try my hardest to be me yet to mold my faults into growth, into learning, into understanding myself. I doubt my own self worth, my capabilities, my image, my own sense of self. I am challenging myself to STOP that self doubt.

FUCK SELF DOUBT.

There, I said it.

FUCK SELF DOUBT.

A little louder for the people in the back. And sorry Mom, I know you're not the biggest fan of me cursing.

But in all seriousness, fuck the bullshit of me doubting I can't do this, that I can't achieve goals (though goal setting is an opportunity of mine and I should utilize this blog as a platform to solidify my goals). I can do this. I will not let my own worries get the best of me. I am smart and capable, quirky yet cool, edgy yet classic. I will not doubt ME. I am giving up self doubt, I do not need you in my life.